Grumpy Me

So yeah life sucks. We all know this. The thing is there is always ups to balance the downs. The hard part is getting through the downs remembering there will be another up. All ways feels like the only way to go is down. I try talking to my mom, but she is always so negative anyways. There was a point where everything out of her mouth was negative. So here I am in a downer and she just adds to it. And I can tell she is getting frustrated listening to me. Well all I can say is, "Go home!"

I know that since Hurricane Katrina things have been hard. Hell, I'm living it too. Look at me. I use to be a fairly successful up and coming someone. Now, all I am is a cook, maid, babysitter and LOSER. I have 3 great kids, but they drive me up a stinking wall. I do love them, but it is so hard. And to top it off, I have no friends. Currently have no husband as he is 17 hours away trying to make money for us to catch up a bit. And here I am stuck in this God forsaken house with 3 little imps.

I can't vent to anyone. There is no one to vent to. I have no friends to go spend the day with. And even if I did, its not like I could go. Try bringing 3 kids that don't listen to a damn thing you say anywhere. It's impossible. I am just so done.

Micheal being gone is really showing me how much I depend on him to keep my sanity. But he doesn't see it, because he has a gym membership there now and can go to the gym after work everyday that he is there. Nothing keeping him glued to the house. Oh and did I mention he gets to hang out with guys that he works with too. Yeah, sort of like being a single bachelor. I'm not bitter though, not at all.

What is wrong with me that I don't want to be here with my kids. I would love to go away for a month. I wouldn't miss anything here one second. There is seriously something wrong with me. But it's only for about 4-6 more weeks then he'll be home. And I will be my happy self again. Hopefully...